I'll Be Baaaaack.

I have been a TOTAL blogging loser recently. I'd like to add to that a writing loser as well. I've actually been quite embarrassed at the state of my blog and writing and I have reasons, but the reasons as valid as they are, don't make me feel any better about it.

I hate this feeling of BLAH that I am in right now. The end of the school year is the craziest time of the year. This is a small example of what I've been up to (AKA- my list of excuses as to why I suck so hardcore right now):

• 2 TAKS tests
• Play Day (think field day, but a competition against other 4th graders at different schools)
• 3 days at camp
• Field trip to the local library/eat at CiCi's
• Field Day
• Meetings galore
• Book Count
• Clean classrooms and move all furniture to middle of room
• Never ending checklist of To-Dos in order to get to leave for the summer

On top of that, I've decided that I wouldn't mind teacher the older kids, say 7th graders in particular. It would seriously be right up my alley. Getting to discuss YA literature with students would be one of the coolest things EVER. Don't get me wrong, I love my 4th graders and I heart my school, but it may be time for a change. So, in order to make that change I have to:

• Study for the ELA 4-8 test
• Take and PASS that test on Thursday

If that wasn't enough, my personal life has been a bit hectic too! Here's a few more excuses to chew on:

• My husband has got a new job that requires CRAZY amounts of hours he has to put in
• I have 3 kids (Yeah, I know, I've had them all along, but now as a semi-single mother, I feel all 3 so much more)
• The hubs sometimes works from home. This should be helpful, right? Um. No. My dining room table has turned into the most disorganized chaotic horrible mess of a desk. Ugh.
• Speaking of my house: It is a disaster. I swear there are goblins that creep up out from under the house and destroy it while I'm not looking. (Oh, wait. Those would be my 3 kids)
• My oldest is about to graduate from Kindergarten
• We have a dance recital for my two older ones next weekend
• And I'm a backstage mom

All of this has EXHAUSTED me. I'm talking, fall-asleep-at 8 kind of tired. This, coming from the girl who used to stay up reading/writing until midnight or later every night and then wake up at 5 for work the next day.

So now that I've filled my blog up with excuses, I am making a vow to be back after next week. It will be summer. I WILL have more writing time. More blogging time. More tweeting time. More reading time. More critiquing time. More writer's workshop time. More ME time. I will demand it.

This whole not writing thing is terribly depressing and I'm in this nasty, killer, sludgy slime of disgustingness that I can't wait to get out of.

SEVEN days and counting and I'll Be Baaaaaaaaaaaack. I know you'll be counting down the days, hours, and minutes to my return.